i feel like a walking zombie now cos i just got back from work. yes, its 1 more min to 2am, and its that late. (and i have yet to wash up :/cos dirty me feels using the com first haha)

banquet job was fun though; the atmosphere, the new stuffs u learn and of cos not forgetting the silly jokers who wouldnt stop crapping hahaha.


okay that aside.


i was so very shocked when i heard of a fellow TP mate's demise. i feel for his family and loved ones. its like, such a promising young man just gone like that. it just brings everyone to great despair. and doesnt this unfortunate incident make you stop and ponder over how unpredictable life can be.
what if i were to die out of a sudden?
what if the same thing happens to my loved ones?
what if my loved ones are gone without me having said what i wanted to say all the while?
what if i never get a chance to see them again?
what if....

i'm so scared now. so afraid of losing anyone close to me. i would never ever want that to happen. and if its really inevitable, i would choose to be the one who go first rather than stay on and experience all the heart-wrenching moments.

if you're reading this, be it a just a hi-bye friend, an acquaintance, friend, close buddy, family or so, do know that i treasure EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU AND I REALLY DO.
god gave me the chance to build a bond with you and i'll treasure it till the end of time.


i wanna live my life with no regrets.